conclusions/realizations

So I've been struggling a lot with figuring out what to do with my life as far as "career" goes. I had been feeling as if I was a loser if a "career" wasn't something that I was working towards or even had already. I was really just allowing the horrible expectations of this false perception of life get to me and forgot all about what I really believe in.

As far as a career goes, I am not interested in one. It is something that has been made up by society to prove that one is a well adjusted human being. But really that has nothing to do with being human. Money or status as far as society is concerned means nothing to me. My worth as a person is no less than the next persons based on the job that I hold or how much fake worthless paper money I have.

As I do know, even if I hate the idea of money and what it stands for I still need to have it to be able to get by. But I'm not going to be a slave to it. I'm not going to live for my job/career. That is not what life is about for me. It is about what kind of person I am and the lives that I touch in a positive way. Life is about love and beauty not money and power. They are principles which I am not willing to compromise and I cannot live happily in this life if I do anything otherwise.

Therefor I'm not going to continue to feel bad about myself because I don't have an established career or lots of money. I'm going to do what I need to, to fulfill my basic needs and concentrate on doing what I can to make myself happy and make the world a better place. After all, it is my choice that I do not want a career. Of course I could go and get one and be all high and mighty and feel established and base my happiness off of empty accomplishments and meaningless things. But that is not my life. I live to be happy and to love and to spread both of those things. I live to fight back against the evil forces in control of our world. I live to see the real beauty in this world. I don't see how anything could be more important than that.